let's talk serious ; God.

Who is God, or what? 
I'm not say'in that, I don't believe in God.
So many People, pray to god when there anxious when they're in need, when they wish something. 
I'm not try'in to afend anybody who is a strong believer. Some people may think I'm critical and it's really risky to make a article about God and how critical I am. But I don't care, I'm just say'in what I think.
God is maybe there, who started with this anyway?
God maybe helped some people, but that could maybe just be an coincidence, can somebody give me a actual evidence for that?
Like here where somebody got led to a girl in a swamp, and was able to rescue that girl. -> save here life.
Where is he, when a little girl is diagnosed with cancer in last stadium? Are you telling me that she deserves to die? Surly not.
Where is God, when thousands of People die of starvation in africa, and everywhere else in the world.
Where is God, when a nun get's shot by somebody, and dies. 
Even though they all pray, pray for there lives. AND " GOD " let's them "die". 


I'm not saying that I'm a non-believer. 


But If your are a believer, don't say I'm afending you. Because "everybody" is a child of God. 


I wish y'all well. 


Don't go blaming me.




xoxo.


Sydney.

let's talk serious,- death.

Hello Everybody,


today I want to talk about, the Terrorism attack in Norway. 
First I thought this would be a bad dream, as I realized that this was true. I first was shocked. I really was, how can so many people die, especially these poor children.
But as I think. All these Soldiers that are trying to protect our land, die, every day. In Iraq, all around the world. Thousands really Thousands people die every day. Maybe they die with they're proud, they're proud to protect our land, but that really doesn't make a difference. Just that we can pretend there isn't anything happening and go shopping and just pretend everything is fine. How many people die in Africa? How many children?They starve to death and they don't get all this attention do they? No. Than I think, that this in Norway is shit. Just because it's activated through a terrorist, and it doesn't happen daily. It's not that important? Or how is that exactly?

Actually, I am shocked that so less people care about. This. Care about what's really happening in the world.
And yes, There are 14 Year Girls, that think this way, when other girls in my age, pretend like there is no war. The worst thing that could happen to them is that they're nail breaks. 




COME ON, GIVE ME A BREAK!




Bye everybody. Hope I gave you something to think of.


By the way ;  R.I.P Amy Winehouse. One of the greatest Soul singers. 

it just feels like I'm disapearing every day, more and more.

I'm walking down the street, thinking about what's happening.  I don't care about getting fater or about my nails.
I just care about, that I'll be loved from those people, I love. Not everything has to have an ending, not everything.
I belive in miracles, I really do. They're has to be some magic.




Why don't we imagine?

Calmness and silence.

Hello!
A new journey beginns. Finding your self. Finding me.

I want to find myself, I want to get calm, I just want to sit there hours and hours, and just think. Think about me and who I am.

When I'm here before I get back, tell me. 

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Hallo!

Eine neue Reise beginnt. Sich selber finden. Mich finden.

Ich will mich selbst finden ich will zur ruhe kommen, einfach nur stunden dasitzen und nachzudenken, nur ueber mich wo ich stehe und wer ich bin. 

Wenn ich da bin bevor ich zurueck komme, sagts mir.

little insight into my humble world. ,- Yes it's a LEGO man!

I must say that I wanted to spare you further insights, because it looks really messy in myroom. may follow some other pictures soon..) & I know my room needs to be painted.

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Hello, world!

Today I had a more balanced day, I woke up in the morning, and was so tired, I went down and made myself a cup of tea to cheer me a little up,  because I don't drink Coffee.It didn't help at all, it made it worse. My whole planned day was gone, I really was so tired. In the afternoon I decided I have to do something about it so I went down I poured a cup of coffee made some creme in and sugar. It was the worst coffee I ever had, but I still drank it because I wanted to get  AWAKE!
And that didn't help eather I must say that I didnt drank it all. Now I'm feeling bad have a bad head- and stomache - ache.
Conclusion : Next time I reather go early in bed, then having to feel bad and can't take care of anything.

"STALKER!" "I prefer the words to be in love."

And it's like an Addiction. . . .

AND SHE WANTS TO BE YOUR ADDICTION!

Some people will stay in your heart.. even if you are gone in theirs.

Once apon a time

Once apon a time there was a little girl, her name was Sydney.

She was like at the age of five, and so sweet like pecan pie.

She loved the beach, and some day like to eat some peach. 

She had a great time staying with her family. 

One day, in the middle of summer, she got some quieek yellow rainboots isn't that a brummer? 

She haunted them for a couple of weeks, and when she got them she made a squek.

As they were back, she ran right up the stairs, and came back down.

 - With just the yellow rainboots on. 

In the end she loved the rainboots, and now she sits her writing this post.

LOVE

The danger of loving 


No matter how strong you are, no matter how cool you are, in the end love always hurts you. And you can't stop those who you love from dying ~ in the end everybody dies. Everybody has his one way to get over loves- pain. The King of Dor, in the book " The tale of Desperaux " makes soup illegal,outlaws rats and this soothed his pain. But I don't believe that somebody can get over when somebody beloved is dying. How do you get over it? In the end, you get killed of the pain till you can get up and try harder. You first fall in a deep, deep hole till you can stand up and fight for your pride.








( Source : The Tale of Desperaux, great book by the way )

This is a big world, but it's little.

How is this possible?


People walk in and out of the door. Some people stay in you're heart and some people you forget. Those people that are worth to forget, are not worth to stay in you're heart. This is a a- opinion that I share with many, people.
Just look around you just superficiality hatred and no love. Where is love gone off? Love should be right here, right now. Everybody loves his lonely damned self, so narcissistic that they can't see what's really important in life. Under there expensive clothes like American eagle, Tom tailor.. they don't see what really counts - they're inner, they're heart.